Sheesh woman! How do you do it? You are amazing! I have left this in my inbox thinking I probably wouldn't have time to read it until after Christmas. But today i just felt I needed some JenPal beauty in my day. I'm so glad I read this now and not later.
3 of your lines I needed most:
"I said to myself, Look at this timeline! This is not nothing. This is a lot. Look what we got to do and see and watch grow. Doing this allowed me to take the shapeless grief-mass and turn it into matter organized, one filled with meaning, a marker of something gained and not just lost to the abyss of time."
I want to make sure my frazzle dazzle is building a timeline filled with meaning. Thank you for helping me put my feelings into words and now, hopefully, action.
So many “family” holidays these days are the source of deepest anguish for me because I don’t have my own family to spend them with, no collective or binding traditions, I’m the odd person out of the “remember when” stories so I’m often left feeling like I’m trying to recreate my past experiences of Christmas magic with people who don’t care or who feel like strangers. It’s a mean yearly reminder of what I don’t and won’t have and the consolation “joy” leftover for people in my situation.
Beautiful! My heart connects to this idea of love and loss, joy and sorrow, celebration and grief. I too experienced this unexpected hit of emotions today. It came out of nowhere and brought the tears rolling. My tears ended with deeper connection to those I hold dear and that is beauty to me.
Your writing seems to say what my heart cannot put into words ♥️
Sheesh woman! How do you do it? You are amazing! I have left this in my inbox thinking I probably wouldn't have time to read it until after Christmas. But today i just felt I needed some JenPal beauty in my day. I'm so glad I read this now and not later.
3 of your lines I needed most:
"I said to myself, Look at this timeline! This is not nothing. This is a lot. Look what we got to do and see and watch grow. Doing this allowed me to take the shapeless grief-mass and turn it into matter organized, one filled with meaning, a marker of something gained and not just lost to the abyss of time."
I want to make sure my frazzle dazzle is building a timeline filled with meaning. Thank you for helping me put my feelings into words and now, hopefully, action.
Thank you. <3
So many “family” holidays these days are the source of deepest anguish for me because I don’t have my own family to spend them with, no collective or binding traditions, I’m the odd person out of the “remember when” stories so I’m often left feeling like I’m trying to recreate my past experiences of Christmas magic with people who don’t care or who feel like strangers. It’s a mean yearly reminder of what I don’t and won’t have and the consolation “joy” leftover for people in my situation.
Beautiful! My heart connects to this idea of love and loss, joy and sorrow, celebration and grief. I too experienced this unexpected hit of emotions today. It came out of nowhere and brought the tears rolling. My tears ended with deeper connection to those I hold dear and that is beauty to me.
Your writing seems to say what my heart cannot put into words ♥️